Rocking Chair

It's been more than a year since my last visit to this blog anyway.. can not close my eyes lately since my busy brain keep on moving, that's the reason I'm coming here again.. feels like home to be here again

Have you ever been on a rocking chair.. I feel like sitting on a rocking chair all this time, keeping me busy but... going nowhere...

Have you ever feel, you've done your best.. better than anyone else but.. no one notice, yeah of course Mother Theresa said.. at the end it's not between you and them.. but you and God, but I need anyone else to admit.. I do know that deep down inside I know that it's time to leave... but many other thing keep on cross my mind, school fees, food supplies, insurance and debt that must be paid off

Why it's always happening to me, dream vs realistic, am I not brave enough to take a risk, well yeah.. call me Ms play it safe.. but I have one angel to be taking care of, but I must asking myself, is it really for her.. or my cowardness

God I'm not a good person.. but please just show me the way to get out of this confusing situation... yeah risk must be taken, since people who risk nothing ... is nothing, and I hope I know which best...