Remembering 9/11

It's Saturday Night here
with my deepest condolences in remembering those who became victims of 9/11 attack 10 years ago, I'd like to share this beautiful poem that touched my heart so deep

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.




Note : I do not owned this poem, but it's too touched my heart to share..

Rocking Chair

It's been more than a year since my last visit to this blog anyway.. can not close my eyes lately since my busy brain keep on moving, that's the reason I'm coming here again.. feels like home to be here again

Have you ever been on a rocking chair.. I feel like sitting on a rocking chair all this time, keeping me busy but... going nowhere...

Have you ever feel, you've done your best.. better than anyone else but.. no one notice, yeah of course Mother Theresa said.. at the end it's not between you and them.. but you and God, but I need anyone else to admit.. I do know that deep down inside I know that it's time to leave... but many other thing keep on cross my mind, school fees, food supplies, insurance and debt that must be paid off

Why it's always happening to me, dream vs realistic, am I not brave enough to take a risk, well yeah.. call me Ms play it safe.. but I have one angel to be taking care of, but I must asking myself, is it really for her.. or my cowardness

God I'm not a good person.. but please just show me the way to get out of this confusing situation... yeah risk must be taken, since people who risk nothing ... is nothing, and I hope I know which best...